I am that, I am…an acorn.

I may have posted about this before, but it’s worth repeating.

Get comfy…it’s a long one.

Do you remember the story of Moses and the burning bush? The story goes that Moses was a fugitive in the desert after murdering an Egyptian when he came across a bush that was on fire but not consumed. Turns out, it was God in the bush, and he wanted Moses to go back to Egypt and set the Israelites free. When Moses asked whom he should say sent him God said, “Say to them, I am that I am has sent me.”

This has had theologians scratching their heads for centuries.

I remember growing up in a home where theology was usually the dinner table discussion. All the men in my family except my mother’s father were either church pastors or bible teachers of some sort. I remember the endless debates and pontificating about what it meant regarding free will or predestination, how God was the creator of the world, and on and on. None of those discussions ever made much sense to me.

In fact, it wasn’t until I came across Neale Donald Walsh that I started to understand it, and it wasn’t until after magic mushrooms that I really understood it. The truth is somewhere between Neal and mushrooms, and the principle you can apply to your life is a little different from either of those.

If you’re not familiar with Neale, he wrote a book called Conversations with God and in it he talks about the “I am”. His view of the “I am” is like the magic mushroom “I am” in that, it’s a belief that consciousness is everywhere. He says that he likes to take the sentence, “I am that I am,” and put a comma in it so it says, “I am that, I am” and walk around his world looking at different things saying to the tree, “I am that, I am,” or to the chicken, “I am that, I am”. In some sense, he’s not wrong. We all come from the same stuff, and there is certainly a measurable interaction between conscious beings and other forms of life or even objects. I use this trick when find my levels of desire coming up and I’m tempted to buy something or covet something. Like, when I see one of those new Ford Broncos with the soft top, lift kit, and custom paint, instead of feeling envious like I used to, I just say, “I am that, I am,” and it quells the anxiety.

Magic mushrooms have a similar approach in that they can show you the interconnectedness of all things. When I had my first magic mushroom experience, I saw a psychedelic leopard in the sky as large as a million galaxies with its mouth wide open, inhaling all of matter, and then its body disintegrated back into the galaxies and planets we know and inhabit. I was inhaled into the leopard and turned into a galaxy, then into an atom, then back to a man. In the process I became everything and everything became me.

Pretty cool experience, but not helpful in day-to-day life.

When it really hit me I was completely sober, relaxing in a field, and looking at an aging oak tree. It had gnarly, moss-covered bark, several dead branches, and spotted leaves. That tree had seen better days. Then I suddenly wondered what it must be like to be a tree - is there a thought, or a feeling, or any sort of knowing? Or does the tree just sit there all day and say, “I am a tree”? And I also thought of the saying of Jesus of Nazareth who said, “I tell you the truth, if you have faith like that of a mustard seed, you can tell this mountain, ‘Go and throw yourself into the sea’ and it will obey you.”

And that’s when the concept started to sink in.

It all comes back to seeds.

The thing with the tree, or mustard seed, is that they each have only one simple thought, “I am”. Nothing else goes through their beings. Think about the acorn that falls from a tree. If conditions are right, eventually it will become an oak tree and produce more acorns.

But what is the seed doing? It doesn’t move or beg or coerce or scheme or get a job…it just…”is”.

This is where it gets a little woo-woo, so stick with me.

New developments in quantum mechanics demonstrate that “the field”, the quantum realm, the unreal, some even call it timespace, the inversion of spacetime, is a very real thing and it is full of nothing but probabilities, possibilities, and frequencies. In other words, somewhere, in what we call the future, there’s a probability that my body will wear out, and this keyboard will break, and somewhere a child will be born, and nations will rise and fall. Within that melee of churning possibilities and probabilities, there’s a specific frequency that wants to be an oak tree. That frequency is seeking a way to move from the unmanifest to the manifest - it’s seeking a portal. The portal it’s looking for is what we call an acorn. The acorn has a specific resonance pattern - it’s DNA or RNA or whatever “A” it has - which harmonizes with the quantum field resonance pattern of an oak tree.

But what does the acorn do? Does it sit there and say, “I am going to be an oak tree?” Or “I am an acorn?” Or even “I think maybe I feel worthy and loved enough that someday I’d like to be an oak tree but that sounds risky so for now I’ll sit in this warm little hole in the ground and rot”?

Not at all.

That acorn sits there and says, with every shred of confidence and surety and zero doubt whatsoever, “I am Groot…” (sorry, I couldn’t resist) “I am an oak tree!” It KNOWS it. It FEELS it. It resonates it. Little by slowly, given the right circumstances, the little seed sprouts, shoots, grows and produces more acorns.

Now think back to what Jesus said: “if you have the faith of a mustard seed, you can tell this mountain to throw itself in the sea and it will obey.” The faith of the mustard seed or the acorn has nothing to do with its size or location or whether it lands on good soil or ever gets watered. The faith of the seed is that it IS what it IS (it’s a real Gen-Xer).

Now, go back to what God said from the burning bush: “I am that I am.” Most Hebrew scholars will agree this is not the best translation. Instead, it should be something like, “I am being what I am being,” or “I am becoming what I am becoming”. In this sense, it is the Allness of All, the Mind of the Mind, the I of the Eye. It is all of reality - every seed, person, animal, slug, galaxy, and thing we haven’t dreamed up yet. It is becoming what it is becoming.

And you are a part of that. You are a fractalized portion of the holographic cosmic great consciousness, incarnated here in this place and time as an individuated unit of consciousness experiencing itself through limitation and duality. You could say that “you are becoming what you are becoming.”

What if you’re becoming something that you don’t want to be becoming? How do we apply this? How do we change it? Not in a Neale Donald Walsh way or a magic mushroom way, but in a real, practical way? I don’t know about you, but going around saying I’m a 2023 Ford Bronco with a soft top and custom paint hasn’t produced anything yet!

By resonating with your vision and KNOWING with absolute faith that you ARE that vision. Not by identifying with material things, those are all well and good, but not really the point. The point is to feel and know that you are what you are becoming. Not in the future, not in the past, not in some wishy-washy half-assed way, but with absolute certainty and clarity of vision and INSPIRED ACTION. Remember, the acorn didn’t get up and do anything, it ALLOWED that which wanted to become an oak tree to move THROUGH it.

Here's a last thought:

The thing that you want, wants you.

There’s a common principle in the plant world that may apply. Trees want to carry on their genes. To do this, they make edible fruit, pretty flowers, and lots of other things to spread all around. Many plant species entice bees and other pollinators to come into their flowers and pollinate them. Many species create fruits that are eaten by other creatures and the seeds are spread all around. We, and creatures like us, are part of the process of plants spreading their genes.

Now, think about this: There’s another principle at work that doesn’t have a name. There come times in the Zeitgeist when an idea’s time has come. We see it in science, like when Darwin and Wallace were working on the idea of evolution at the same time, or when the movies A Bug’s Live and Ants came out at the same time. Coincidences like this happen frequently – so much that we take it for granted. But what if those ideas were there in the quantum realm all along? Just like the technology that is bringing these words to you always existed, but it couldn’t be manifested until the world was ready to manifest it, and now I’m writing to you and you’re reading this.

Well, you’re also a part of this cosmos. What if the cosmos has ideas it needs to spread and it is trying to entice people to manifest those ideas? If you have an idea that won’t go away, a vision of your future, a partner, a career, a lifestyle, or an invention, then you are tuned to those things and the cosmos is calling out for anyone and everyone who is tuned in to take inspired action. You are, if you will, the acorn in that moment when the idea is conceived. Those ideas and dreams are available in the quantum field and desperate to be made manifest and seek a portal through which to move from the unreal to the real. All you have to do is resonate on the right frequency, stay focused, take inspired action, and the universe will take care of the rest.

In the same way that the “I am becoming what I am becoming” becomes an oak tree when the acorn allows it through according to its faith.

What are the day-to-day practices and procedures to make sure we are resonating correctly? After all, we’re far more complex creatures than acorns and possibly even oak trees.

Well, that’s why we’re here in RCA doing the work. At least, that’s why I’m here.

Hope this helps.

Shawn.